I am laying it out on the line....

and my heart is racing because NO one knows how much I weigh. I have always weighed A LOT! When I was a size 4 I weighed 133 pounds. I do carry a lot of my muscle in my lower body so I do not mind if I weigh more. When I got pregnant with my first I argued with the nutritionist at the OBGYN's that I was not fat! I told her how much I could leg press, how many triathlons I had competed in etc....Nothing like finding out you are pregnant and being told you weigh too much. I hate BMI scales because everyone is different. I am into health and fitness, not a number on a scale. So why do I hide the fact that I weigh 150 pounds! Yes, there it is. I want to weigh 138 pounds. That is the weight I am comfortable at.

The last time I got down to 133 pounds, I was leg pressing 360 pounds and not eating very much, so I know that is an unrealistic goal that I just can't keep up. Really I would be happy at 140 pounds....that is just 10 pounds (that is my comfort zone)! Why is it so stinkin hard to loose 10 pounds! So, I am keeping a diary of what I eat, how much I exercise and the supplements I am taking. I do not believe in diet fads, medications etc...to loose weight. I do it the old fashioned way, eating better and exercising. Like I said before I am also reading up on the Thyroid diet. I take bits and pieces that I think will work for me because I do not follow eating plans, I like to make my own and find out what works for me. I hope to give others inspiration if they are in the same place, or to give others the freedom of letting go of the that number on the scale and to live a healthy life.....enjoy!

Update:

I think you should be wherever you are comfortable with yourself. For me, it is 140 pounds. I just want to be healthy and not have many complications that can come with a thyroid problem and I can solve most of those problems through proper eating and exercise. And yes, I can get a little obsessed when I want to reach a goal. I am a bit of a perfectionist!